I have spent time reflecting upon the past couple of years and the amazing doors that have been opened for my wife and I during this time. We have truly been deeply blessed with opportunities that provide not only the ability to meet our basic needs but also allowing us to spend time together.
It dawned on me today that while I have been truly grateful for these blessings and have thanked the Lord every single day for his bounteous generosity in our lives that I have been allowing the success we have felt interfere with my worship to my very Savior.
I work a lot! I have the opportunity to work from home, this is a mixed blessing, while getting to stop to spend time when my daughter needs me, it is also very easy to go back into the office and pull an all nighter. This sadly happens too often.
What dawned on my was this…. I have been hiding behind how busy my work is and the crazy hectic schedule that my wife and I keep as a result of these opportunities that we have been blessed with that I have found myself using that as an excuse to skip part of my church meetings. While thanking the Lord for his gifts, I have been hiding behind the very success that he granted us in faithfully attending my meetings. I am too busy, too tired after an all night work session to get up on Sunday and go to all of my meetings.
What a hypocrite I had become!
How could I have allowed these thoughts to creep into my mind that we are helping create so many jobs for others and that my work needed me that this was more important than taking the time to fully attend to my worship.
I am grateful for a loving God who provides us with second chances, to correct our errors, and for still loving me so much that He would grant unto us such miraculous blessings in our lives while I stumbled on the receiving end of these magnanimous gifts!