Goodbyes never get any easier. I say them often to my beloved children as they leave to go back their mothers. After years of this heartache, at times I seem numb to it, yet the pain deep inside can never be removed.
I often wonder what it is like for my children. The heartache that they must feel moving between homes must at time be unbearable for them as well. As each goodbye comes every week, the hugs and expressions of love are shared, yet as i watch them leave I can’t help but wonder if they truly know how much I love and adore them.
Our time with our children is our top priority when we are all together. We support their activities and sports while balancing the precious limited moments in time we have to be together. We spend our time together trying to show them of our deep love for them in every moment, from the small talk to family dinners, to the activities to the tucking in at bed and nightly prayer.
Then the goodbyes painfully come again. As I reflect upon last nights goodbye, the realization of the extremely limited communication for the next week deepens the heartache felt watching the kids as they leave. I think to myself as I watch them go that such little time is so unfair. With a deep breath, followed by a long sigh, the emotions are back under control as I drive home alone once again, the same lonely drive made six times a month.
Goodbyes never get easier, the pain always present, as the fortress around my heart strengthens.
I can’t today
There is so much to do
I have piles of work
That I must get through
Next week we’ll do it
That will be best
I’m so tired right now
I just need a rest
Life is so busy
There just isn’t time
Maybe next summer
A chance we will find
What do you mean, he’s gone?
That just isn’t fair!
There was so many things
That I wanted to share
My heart is breaking
For the time that was lost
The excuses of life
Came at GREAT COST!
With all the negativity surrounding us, from issues at home, within our countries to the chaos around the world, there is a greater need for hope now than ever before, yet so many have abandoned hope.
Hope is critical in our lives. If we don’t hope for things how can we ever have faith?, for faith is the substance of things hoped for. Hope is a prerequisite of faith.
There are many who have lost hope in this life. Hope for a brighter future. Hope for our relationships and families. Hope for our countries. Hope for anything.
Hope helps us move beyond our fears and prevents us from despair. Those whom have lost hope often find themselves in a state of despair and continual misery.
Hopeful people are happy, even when dissatisfied with things. Hope drives us to change and have faith and believe in a better tomorrow.
When hope seems lost, pray. Pray for hope. Seek out hope.
We control our own lives. We can always find hope when we seek it, prayer and scripture study can bring hope into our lives. When we have hope, all things are possible. When we do not, we are left with despair.
It is easy to lose hope. We must always be prayerful and watchful that we have hope in our lives, for without it, we are lost. Having or losing hope is a personal choice for we are in control of our minds and thoughts, no one else.